Happy Year 2010!!! ----Complicated Feelings >_<----

New Year, New Resolution

That's what everybody said to a brand new year, so to live in a brand new way at 2010.
To me, I still don't know what I want to be, what I want to see myself in the future.

I receive a few bad news. And these bad news happen on the day of 01/01/2010.
The first day of year 2010.
I was sad to hear those news.
I tried to think positively. Hoping those who involved will be alright.
I keep telling myself that "Everything will be alright", "Think positively".
It's hard, very hard.
Now is already 1am.
I should be grateful because at least I end my first day of 2010 with a smile.
I as a Chinese also believe that, If you start you day smoothly, then everything will go smoothly for the rest of your day.
In year 2010, I hope those who did not start the new year smoothly, may be able to enjoy the happiness after a rough obstacles or drawback.
Good Luck to you all.

Feelings can be related with the weather, and vice versa.
Sometimes we can saw the bright sunny sun, while sometimes the rain got too heavy that the sun is totally blocked by the heavy clouds.
But every time no matter how heavy the rain is, the sun will always appear in the end.
It make me felt good to think that way.
It's like after having a hard cry-out, the problems will be able to solve and in the end, smiles will appear at everyone's face.
This actually gives me the hope the hope to think positively and actually not being so depressed.
Maybe it's like a pathetic way to comfort yourself so you wont cry till your eyes are swollen like a goldfish's eye the next day.
But to me, it's like a way to release yourself from being so sad, worry or stress or whatever.
People tends to leave the most weakest impression when they are all by themselves.
That way, other people will have the impression of this person as a strong and reliable person.
So, people will put out their strongest front to avoid from being bully and leave the crying when they are alone and "safe" time.
It's lucky some people knows how to cry when they feel down.
Some people thinks crying is not a way to "release" themselves and they wont even thought of "crying".

(my way of 表达 some information is really SUCKS!!!)

New Year, of course I would like to have a new wish.
Wish me and HDL be longer and longer and longer and longer together.
Wish my family are healthy, safe, and always happy.
Wish my friends are all safe and sound.

I don't expect much. Even though I kind of expecting a DSLR.
But, after receiving some news, that has makes me go through some experience stories that tells human to be grateful and appreciative, 知足常乐.


haiz...
please be happy... please...
Is it if I forgone all of the things, that I will be able to gain happiness?
I'm ready to forgone it all.

I also just want you to be happy. I like to see that dumbo smile on your face.
It also keeps me alive when I see you smile^^
so... give me more of your dumbo smile, ok?
I wont make you "kek sim". I also will try not to make you unhappy.
New Year, More Smiles, Less Tears, More Happiness, Less Sadness.
To Us, To my family, To my friends,
CHEERS!!!

Happy Year 2010!!! v^^v